Friday, June 8, 2018 (S56E48): The Longing

Anna is sleeping when a knock comes on the door; it’s Finn.  He senses things didn’t go well; she says, “as well as can be expected.”  She says Robyn was horrified, but didn’t criticize or judge her –she was fair and compassionate- she says, but fears something “irrevocable has been lost between them.”  She says nobody could ever really know her, because she didn’t want to know herself.  Finn reminds her she was young when this happened and did the best she could at the time; she tells him Robyn’s question about the grandchildren, and how that secret has colored every moment… every memory.

She says when Robyn left, it felt more like she was saying goodbye; she apologizes for underestimating Finn and not telling him.  He admits he hasn’t been entirely forthcoming with her, either, about his family or his past.  He tells her he recently ran into his father; he was teaching at Berkley.  Professor Gregory Chase, he says; explains that he took his mom’s maiden name after his dad remarried.  Says he was still cleaning out his mom’s things when his dad’s new wife, a woman half his dad’s age, was giving birth to his brother; Anna understands now why he felt as he did.

He says he and his brother are strangers; Anna says it sounds like there’s more, but he says that’s enough history for now.  She thanks him for sharing what he did; he apologizes for saying she was “one step away from putting on a bathrobe and getting a cat.”  They laugh about it and he starts to leave; Anna says, “wait.”